Where is My Mind?

I love Sucker Punch... I love the sound track...

This song is my favorite - Where is My Mind - Yoav featuring Emily Browning

Hooray! I am on my way to a city near YOU!

So, blah blah blah I've been a sappy ass. No more.

I'm leaving the country in 2.5 months for a few weeks, it is much needed. You see, I originally cancelled my ticket, which cost me an arm and a leg. I cancelled my ticket because I thought I was going to have a visitor. Turned out I was thinking like an idiot. This person probably had no intention of coming.... to which my statement is true that I am an idiot for believing otherwise. SOOOOOO since I have been pushed aside and forgotten about by many of my friends recently (hey guys not very nice.... tisk tisk) I re-purchased my ticket and I will be departing soon!

A lovely person has opened their home to me and I will be staying with this person the entire time, unless I irritate them and then I'll probably have to leave. LOL... At any rate, I am beyond happy and excited. Can't ya' tell?!

Well - I'm down to my last phase of weight loss and I look good. Tone up and tighten up, that's all I have to do. This last month I lost more than expected, which is GREAT. I'll post some pictures in my new dresses and heels soon. Until then... here are some new pictures of me and I LOVE my friend Jamie's post... being called a badass makes me feel all gushy inside. LOL

SRF OUT
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I've Lost My Marbles...

HI! Howdy! What's been going on??????

So, I've had a real fuq'd up couple of months. However, I am still alive and kicking baby! To my ex-boyfriend, take a freaking hike (this is nice considering I feel like saying 1,000 curse words about him). To my newly acquired "friend"... I like you - a lot. You've hurt me. FML... To graduate school -- really? LOL! REALLY?! Summer school is going to suck for 5 weeks! Good thing I have July to look forward to... wait. Do I? Probably not - you see, I have come to the conclusion that I am unlucky with life. HA! Totally unlucky.

I meet someone, I like them, I lay it all out there, I get hurt. Why? Because I allow myself to. I've come to this conclusion with the help of my dear friend Daisy LOL... she told me that I need to stop meeting men that don't realize how special I really am. I appreciate her concerns and words of love. BUT you can't help but meet someone, fall for them, and essentially get trampled all over because you want SO badly for them to care about you the way you do about them. Am I right? YUP YUP...

Here's the deal. My ex is my ex for a reason. It's over, he sucks, he hates me, feelings are mutual, and I'm done with that chapter of my life. The bad thing is, the dude lives in the house we purchased together. I'll never rid of him completely until the house sells or he croaks. I don't wish death, but damn it, cut me loose already. I deserve it. Really, I do. I deserve to be happy. I've been miserable for a long time. And I've been going through a really ROUGH time lately.... I just want to smile, laugh, love, be loved, and enjoy the splendors of life. It's hard. When will this happen for me? I keep thinking that things will get better. There's only one way but up right? WRONG.... I keep getting the shitty end of the stick. WTF is wrong with me?

I am the dumbest graduate student I know. And that says a lot since there is a lot of dumbasses in the graduate program, but I rank at the very tip top.

Anything interesting? Well, I've been dedicating myself to the gym for a month now, 5 times a week, hardcore baby.... SIKE. I do cardio 5 times a week and weight lift every other day. I look decent, but a few more months and I'll be pretty dope! Take that EX and new friend.

Oh yeah... I had to move back into my mom's house. Yipee. NOT! They appreciate me being here, I buy them their groceries and keep them company. Because you all know I am supreme when it comes to telling jokes and being a sarcastic asshole. You love it and THEY love it. High Five!

What is next for me? I have no clue. And I hate that. But, I really don't. I fell for some dude, who is wonderful... but like my life story, I have been hurt and so, I am once again a dwindling piece of garbage hanging by a thread, waiting to be cut from its misery. Oh shit, writer alert.

So, I'm off, when there is something interesting I will write again. Until then... here are some new pictures of yours truly.

XOXOXOX

SRF Out

What's Been UP? Well,... I'll tell you!

So life is strange, it takes different turns everyday when you least expect it. I've learned a valuable lesson, probably the most important lesson of my entire life.

Do not put your entire trust into somebody that doesn't fully love you.....

I've met new and exciting people that make me swoon every time we make contact.
School is hard but I am pushing through.
I have decided to apply to the PhD program.

I love myself and I'm beginning to think that being happy is all that matters...

More to follow, I've been in a daze lately - I'll be back on top in no time!

SRF Out
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Hello Worthy People...

WOWZA people are reading my blog and there is really nothing very interesting on here. That just means you all freaking LOVE ME. Which is okay in my book. So whats been new? LET ME TELL YOU!

So my best friend, Roma has two younglings... they have recently been asked to model for the Spirit Hoods Kids line! I know RIGHT! They are adorable and beautiful young men and I am beaming with excitement for them. Little models they are... freaking spamtastic! I was able to go the final shoot in Malibu and wherever else we went, it was far let's just say that. We spent 14 hours on the road, at a shoot, running around like chickens with our heads cut off. BUT the end result is fantastic. CHECK THEM OUT!

And freaking buy a Spirit Hood, I mean really? If you don't have one already you are a snoozer. Get with the program and JOIN THE TRIBE.

Spirit Hoods or Spirit Hoods Kids

Speaking about Spirit Hoods.... [[[segway]]] I bought a new ONE! HOLLA! It's gorgeous, the Snow Leopard! This hood is super soft and light weight. I absolutely LOVE this hood.

I had been going back and forth whether or not to purchase the silky babe but I did and I am in LOVE. However, I am still the RED FOX and I am still head over heels in love with my Leopard.... but this one is fancy. Makes me shiver when I think about her... okay NEXT!

Grad school. Honestly --- what the fuck was I thinking? I mean, I love the experience and meeting new people, blah blah blah but 18 books and I am reading 3 simultaneously? I mean, come on now. I'm smart but not a speed reader. JAYSUS

My hair is almost to my ass [random, carry on!].

Australia, I am so still going. Looks like I'm rolling solo. But thats okay, that just means more time alone to figure out what the hell am I going to do when I come home or if I am EVER coming home. Time for el'Kimster to figure out whats more important... living life for myself or living my life for others? We all know the answer, for yourself silly! BUT I like to say that so it makes the trip look more legit rather than saying what I really am thinking. Which is::: HELL YEAH PARTY OVER HERE!

Saw my cousin from Hawaii after 14 years -- fun!
Saw my little cousin from Mission Viejo after 12 years -- fun!
Contemplating upgrading to the new iPhone 4 through Verizon Wireless.
Still editing my manuscript -- not so much fun!

SRF Out
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Hyena Me BABY!

I always vote for the underdogs... don't you? The underdogs are missing from the Tribe at Spirit Hoods. In the Spirit Hood world there are leopards, wolves, lions, bears, cousin of wolves, even a night hawk (who is by the way no way an under dog), and other large mammals. These animals already have established themselves in the whole scheme of the Spirit Hood and animal world. They are praised, "Oh how cute" or "Oh how robust that big guy is" or "Wow what an ANIMAL"...

I feel, as does my best friend that in order to create a more balanced operation the Tribe is in need of something more than an overzealous animal who knows that their shit don't stink. The Tribe needs a Spirit Animal that has some insecurities, that is silly, crazy, even wilder than their counterparts.

The Tribe NEEDS the HYENA!

Now, I've posted on Spirit Hoods Facebook page and have some responses but it was not enough to get the creators, the men of Spirit Hoods, the el jefa's to really respond and be in agreement with the one's that think the Hyena is a good idea. Click here ... like the page, love the product, and vote YES for the Hyena! Come on... Phaleaseeeeeeee

Here's a scenario, put yourself in this situation and your best friend, or a friend, a sister, your brother, your mom, your sibling, whoever:::::

This signifies me and my best friend, Roma to a capital T!!! We crack up all the time, we are insane, well... she says I am crazy, but I concur that she is on the crazy path too.

The Hyena is perfect for the ever growing Tribe.

Stripes:::

Rosettes:::

Faux Hawks:::

The possibilities are endless, these will be epic and you all know this.

EXACTLY

So let's hear it... who here reading this would LOVE to have a Hyena Spirit Hood? I know I freaking do. In fact I would want a couple, one for me and one for my fantastic best friend.

I, The Smart Red Fox, hereby vote AYE for the production of the Hyena. Underdog... I say NAY! We will create a pack that will be insane compared to the proud and mighty wolf pack. We laugh, we don't howl. Ha Ha! We laugh in the face of danger.

SRF Out
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There is a History in All Men's Lives - William Shakespeare

So my first week has been completed at grad school. I will say that my brain is deactivating already. Each course I am taking requires so much of my brain that I am not sure that I can equally disperse it. The first course requires me to read 12 books and then write papers for each reading and compose a chapter in my professors book that he is publishing in the Fall of this year. No pressure - right? The next course I stumbled into... I thought I was going to learn how to edit historical publications in general for museums, journals, publications, etc. Well, the class does teach the fundamentals but I am now an editor of the college's award winning history journal. With deadlines each week, oh and I was told that they have won every year for 24 years and want to take another victory this year to make it 25. No pressure - right? The last course I am taking was supposed to teach the fundamentals of public history, how the public views exhibits, etc... now I am helping with the exhibition of a museum that is to open the second week of April. Not only will we create the exhibit but we will be featured in multiple publications throughout the OC. No pressure - right?

I had no idea that graduate school was basically volunteer work. In essence it is, although I am grateful for the opportunity to be a part of such a prestigious college and be a part of a publication, journal, and museum exhibit. I am just overwhelmed by the amount of work that lies ahead of me and the fact that I will quite possibly be THIS busy for the remainder of the year gives me anxiety attacks. I have a 2 1/2 month break in the summer and I intend to use it to the max! I AM going to Macedonia first, I was informed that funding is available for graduate students for RESEARCH and dammit it is research! LOL! Then I will fly to Australia... as soon as I come home I will be back in school. Back in action!

I'm tired, but I must continue to read. Shhhhhhhh... someone please tell me why I want a Masters Degree?

SRF Out

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